I've often been quoted as saying "I'm in love with being in love". Anyone whose ever had a romantic relationship with me will admit that when I'm in love, I'm at my happiest. Anyone whose ever worked with me knows that when I'm in love with a job that I'm doing, I'm at my most productive. Whatever it is or whoever it is, I give my best when things are at its best.
But then there's the down side. Its what I call "Love's defining moment". Its when the last straw has been laid on the camel's back and there is no turning back. It's spoiled. It's tainted. It's done.
I don't like that part of love. It seems that I can never remember the moment I fell in love, but can always remember the moment I fell out of it.
With one person, it was the moment that they finally admitted that marriage was something they never wanted. With another it was the moment they admitted thatthey loved me more than they loved themselves. With another it was the moment they said they would do for themselves before they would do for me. For another it was the moment they raised a hand to strike me. For the one that meant the most-my mother-it was the moment I realized that all of the pain and suffering I had gone through was based on a lie.
There have been many. Because I am "in love with being in love", I love hard. But when its gone, it's gone-no turning back.
There are many defining moments in our lives. No matter good or bad, try to remember them because in some small way, they help to define who we are, what we stand for, and ultimatly who we will be.
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